Recently most of my staff was on holiday. Pongal is a major South Indian festival and my drivers and maids were all on a long holiday. Weirdly P had school that day. Hubby was off work and everyone was in holiday mode but P had to go to school. When I picked her up in the evening and got her home she was delighted to see her dad at home. And realised that there was no staff. She was like everyone is on holiday today? And I said yes, everyone is on holiday. That’s why I have to do all the work. I don’t get a holiday. She instantly replied “Because you are mom! How can you take a holiday??”

And I was like ya…. that’s right. I’m MOM. Have to be available 24×7. I have to be maid, cook, Driver, nanny….. everything! But sometimes it’s ok. Sometimes when my maid takes an off… I kind of enjoy it. Yes it does get me mad at times but…. it’s fun. Doing everything from bathing to picking and dropping to school to feeding. These are chores I normally don’t do. Coz doing them everyday makes me mad. Drives me crazy. Some people might judge me for saying these things… but the fact is yes… these chores bore me and I can’t do it everyday.

I love my little girls. They are a part of me. A part of heart walking outside my body. But surely listening to their tantrums and feeding the fussy eaters drives me up the wall. I rather spend some quality time playing or reading with them. I rather interact with them with a peaceful mind and make the connection. The days I do their other work, I realise I spend much lesser time doing these things with them. I get so full of them doing those things that I want to spend some time by myself. I need time for work. So I land up cutting down on the quality time.

But yes the sometimes I do do them, I enjoy them. Splashing in the water with the little hello kitties, eating in the House tent, drinking milk watching orangutans on TV, rubbing moisturiser on their bodies…. love it.